ok I would not usually read a book because of the blurbs but. Lewis Hyde’s The Gift is a book whose blurb section feels made up. The idea that one book has these people saying these things about it is. not normal. so I guess.
Very cool listing of tumblelogs from 2007– ie, the style of blogging that tumblr was inspired by/named for: https://web.archive.org/web/20070708185344/http://tumblelog.co.uk/
hannibal s4 truthers are always talking about how “the cast wants to do it!” but if they REALLY wanted it they’d pull a highlander reunion and film an angsty coda in hugh dancy’s living room
once a year my brain is like hmmm what if methos-supercut-of-highlander rewatch… one of these days it’s gonna be for real
trying to make a resume and. the problem is not “can you explain the gaps in your resume” there are no gaps it’s “can you explain the items in your resume” and no. I cannot explain any of this
I want to grow out my buzz cut I just need a rock to hide under for a year or so
a dream where you return to a place you loved and everything is exactly the same, and they were expecting you
Ferrari was an incredibly unsexy, american movie about a bunch of italian sex havers
1. Favorite fic you wrote this year
I’m going to be a bit squirrely about what counts as “this year” in some of these questions, but favourite fic written and posted entirely in 2023: do it and do it again, one of those short brainworms that hit me like a creepy, rapey truck and I hope it does the same to other people.
2. Least favorite fic you wrote this year
I like what I have of death would be a good reason, the AU where Will and Hannibal are preteen girls in competitive gymnastics, but I’ve wavered on either marking it finished or just deleting it, because I’m not sure where to go with it or if I have the time/energy/motivation to go anywhere with it. I have just enough snatches of stuff I’d want to be in there to hold off, but they have not coalesced into something that passes a threshold of excitement about writing it.
3. Favorite line/scene you wrote this year
OK, I’m including Symbasis because I was still editing and posting it in 2023, and because it has the clear winner in the sandal-spanking scene, which is both my personal favourite kink scene I’ve ever written and a scene I find delightful in a JSTOR-to-AO3 Pipeline sense. It’s in chapter 27, if anyone’s looking, though skipping right to there might prove… a little confusing. But really, I’d probably have to answer this one to the question of favourite fic I’ve written ever, so if you’re intruiged enough to read chapter 26, maybe give 1-25 a try first?
4. # of words written this year
Posted word count on AO3 is 146,594, the vast majority of which is Symbasis, but I’ll have to go with that number because trying to figure out how many words I’ve written including the beginning of the novel thing which I’m now on my third iteration of (currently stalled at 15k) sounds exhausting.
5. Most popular fic this year
Symbasis, though that’s really just chaptered-fic hits.
6. Least popular fic this year
A Commonplace Event, which is an extract from a previous iteration of said novel-thing, back when I thought it was going to be epistolary. The tag trifecta of rape, abortion and crucifixion doesn’t seem to be the magic key to AO3 fame!
7. Fandom you enjoyed writing for the most this year
Haha. I mean.
8. Favorite character you wrote this year
Weldjebauend of Siwah! My guy! My very own blorbo! Honestly, by the time I finished writing Symbasis, Wel and Hannibal occupied as much or more of my mind as the guys from the NBC show. Obviously the relationships between the sets of characters are important, but in figuring out how to rewind Hannibal 2300 years ago, Wel was the key to everything– I spent SO long trying to figure out how to give a character a name recognizeably similar to “Will Graham,” and as soon as I found the sounds I needed in Egypt it was immediately obvious that Will would have been a religious leader in the ancient world, and Siwah was the obvious place to situate him for the story. Siwah is probably the #1 place I’d like to visit in the world now, because I feel like I have this close friend who’s from there and I want to get to know him better, even if I never write about him again. (Sometimes I wonder what he’s up to, but I think I established pretty solidly that he’s busy having a nice life in Carthage, and maybe he deserves some privacy after all he’s been through.)
9. Favorite writing song inspiration
I can’t listen to music while I write 🙁
10. A new kink you wrote by surprise in a fic this year
Unless prompted by some sort of bingo– which I didn’t do this year– my characters tend to be pretty predictable in their kinks. The surprises are probably more of the unsexy variety this year– for instance, I wouldn’t have predicted multiple fics about abortion, but here we are.
11. Something you learned about writing this year
Honestly? That it takes time and available mental real estate and that it’s OK to not have those things, and it’s OK to not write when life demands it. Writing and fanfic are really important and valuable to me. They matter, they made me more myself, life feels more interesting when I’m letting ideas come in and go out. But I also went back to school this year, and am currently a full-time engineering student, and it’s frankly stupid to beat myself up for not writing on a day where I simply didn’t have time. Yes, sure, “I didn’t have time” is a synonym for “it wasn’t a priority”; and it is indeed fine to have other priorities sometimes.
12. Current # of WIPs
Fic things that I’m interested in finishing: – an AU set in the Rakhat universe of Mary Doria Russel’s The Sparrow, which I am either almost done or not nearly done depending on whether I decide it’s a one-shot suggestion of an AU, or a thing that wants to be long and have some sort of plot. – the thing I’m referring to just as “the AA fic”, which I somehow lost most of but I think actually what I lost was going in the wrong direction anyway, so. – Maybe the gymnastics thing. I don’t know. I don’t know!!
13. Most memorable comment or review
I had a few comments this year where readers shared personal connections to the content of the stories– which I don’t want to share publicly, but means a lot to me!
14. Favorite fic you read this year
Probably compromise by bluecarrot, which is short but gets stuck in the mind so easily.
15. Favorite fic author you read this year
Yeah it’s bluecarrot!!!!!
16. Longest fic you wrote this year
Well, if Symbasis is disqualified, apparently there are seven thousand words of death would be a good reason
17. Shortest fic you wrote this year
Finally, a reason to mention even true, the fic narrating an event that I was weirdly certain was actually going to happen in the final episode of Succession, and then somehow did not??
18. How many fandoms did you write for this year
I guess… three? Hannibal, Succession, and historical RPF.
19. Favourite fandom event your participated in this year
Event free, baby! Nobody can tell me what to write!!!
20. Favorite fandom to read fic from this year
This might, shock you, but…
holy shit I cannot BELIEVE I wrote an entire orchestra AU of Hannibal and didn’t cast Norman Lebrecht as Freddie Lounds??? what was I THINKING slipped disc is literally our very own rancid tattlecrime